Did not mean to put that rant here o.o… lol, but w/e. We constantly paint this pretty picture of ourself on social media and ive always wanted to shake that up. It just so happens that i started out by accident lol, but the best things do

My life is rife with this nonchalant attitude…

So, I hung out with shawn yesterday. For those of you who don’t know shawn is this really cute guy that I liked and was dating literally throughout the year. We started talking me more in the beginning and fell into this kind of on and off lull. And im not just talking about texting we would always be over hours place watching movies and cuddling, but we never had sex, which gets me mad because I think he’s sexy as fuck, but hes just not that into me, in the wise words of Steve Harvey….

So here’s the problem, i still kind of have feelings for him even though I’m well omw to being in a full blown relationship with this guy chris. So, the thing with chris is that hes great, he has a great personality, we connect reallllyyy well but….i just dont find him that attractive…he’s cute, but he doesn’t ignite this passion and lust inside me like shawn, where when i a look at his hands all i could think about is having them on my waist and just all over me, and i dont feel that way sbout chris…

Well yesterday, i finally came to the conclusion that whatever i felt for shawn it was purely lust! He’s fucking crazy, annoying, he’s only into conspiracies, he’s unreasonable, and an all around asshole. What i like about him is that he’s smart, he pays for things, and he’s sexy… thats it, nothing substantial, but for some reason i couldn’t seem to get over him, even though, before he would hit me up recently i wouldn’t think about him…

Now chris is funny, we’re into the same things, he’s different, he’s kind and caring, loving, and he’s adventurous, but he’s rather bigger than I’d like my partner to be and i just don’t find him lustfully attractive…

So, my question is what do i do… im done with shawn thats a given, but do I keep trying with chris, he’s loading weight and going to the gym, do i stick it out and weight for him to slim down? A am i being shallow? But aren’t my feelings valid? I’m a rational human being, and i keep saying to myself, just give it more time, but the more time i give it the deeper he falls on…

Idk, jesus show me the way, it’s Sunday and i should probably go to church, but that’s another issue…

PS. Uggh, every time i think about fucking shawn pops up into my head bcuz all i could think about is what it would be like to be with him bcuz we’ve done some foreplay and i loved it! I barely think about being with chris :/

If you’re bored with life, if you don’t get up every morning with a burning desire to do things - you don’t have enough goals. -Lou Holtz



Seems like IKEA are really shaking things up this year. In addition to the previously announced TV set, they’re also going to release a digital camera made of cardboard called Knäppa (“Snap”). It’ll hold 40 photographs at a time and plugs directly into your USB port. While it’s not the prettiest camera the world has ever seen, I do love the idea of a screen-less digital camera that brings people back to the wait-and-see days of film.

This is great.


Fall 2014 Editor’s Pick
Opens Sept 4, 1-6p:

Made for Whites by Whites” and “Rescue
 Nick Cave
Jack Shainman Gallery, 513 W20th St., NYC
Jack Shainman Gallery, 524 W24th St., NYC

On view at 524 West 24th Street will be Cave’s body of work Rescue. The series comprises sculptures that incorporate found ceramic dogs sitting on furniture within elaborate grottos or dreamlike dens. Dogs have historically been associated with loyalty, class, breed, commitment, and protection. In the Rescues, Cave focuses on a single canine that has quite literally been rescued from destruction, very much like an adopted pet. These dogs become the benevolent guardians of their self-contained worlds, focusing the spotlight on the forgotten and discarded. Many of the works included in Made for Whites by Whites, on view at 513 West 20th Street, have formal similarities to the Rescues in that central found objects are presented within elaborate armatures built up with items from Cave’s familiar lexicon of ceramic birds and flowers, porcelain fruit, and copies of Capodimonte. However, the content is quite different. In Made for Whites by Whites, racially charged historical objects anchor the works such as the stereotypical representation of a black man with dark skin, big red lips, and white eyes in Untitled, 2014, or the Golliwog costumed mannequin in King of the Hill, 2014. These were once commonplace caricatures that infantilized and dehumanized the African American population. This project began when Cave found a container at a flea market shaped like the head of a black man and labeled ‘Spittoon.’ - thru Oct 11




Marina Ambramovic & Ulay Laysiepen

Death Self, 1977

This performance consisted of the two artists seated in front of each other, connected at the mouth. They took in each other’s breaths until all of their available oxygen had been used up. The performance lasted only 17 minutes, resulting in both artists collapsing unconscious to the floor, having filled their lungs with carbon dioxide. This personal piece explored the idea of an individual’s ability to absorb the life of another person, exchanging and destroying it.

Idk I think this is dumb but you might like it magnum-0pus

I think it’s a cool art piece, very sensual, but coming from a healthcare professional perspective, that’s retarded lol

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